Unlike most of my family, as well as my friends, I have chosen a fast that does not include a strict food restriction…but instead restricts media. I am not ashamed to say that I am a facebook addict. I have facebook up on the computer at home from the time I wake up, through the whole day, and often late into the night when I should have gone to bed hours earlier. Leaving that is hard. I can’t tell you how many times I have thought “Oh, I want to post that on facebook SO bad!!!” But I have resisted.

What I miss more than anything is just the connection that I share with my friends, real and e-maginary (online) friends. I love sharing funny things about my baby girl, or my crazy older children, or my charming husband…or songs that punch me in the gut….

But the point of it is…facebook is a grand distraction. It draws me away from my time with God EVERY SINGLE DAY. God and I still manage a dialogue, but not as intensely as I desire, when I put him on hold to go play words with friends!

Seriously. Marinate in that for a few seconds. Creater of ALL THE THINGS…”Hold please…Tracy’s trying to come up with a good word using HJWllEQ.” He might just hold for that one, to tell me that stack’s taking me right to H-E-DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS!!

But that said, as much as I have missed facebook in the last few days, it has served it’s purpose. One, I have not missed my Bible reading time in 2 weeks. That’s not a record for me, but definitely hasn’t been the trend lately. And, on many of those nights, I read with hubby, and prayed together.

Worship on Sunday took a bit to hammer through my distraction…but it got there. I don’t remember which song, but it got there!

So – some would call my fast light – they’d JUDGE me weak…but I would say it has already headed me toward my fast zone – time spent with my God with little to no distraction. In the time I devote, it’s like…worship songs just spill out exactly how I feel and I want to post every one of them on facebook. Listening to Christian talk radio brings a different area of conviction every hour or so! But I am loving it…this feeling of revival.

The rest of the family is fasting different levels of a Daniel fast, so in the evenings, I am eating what they would eat. But, I am getting a good lunch in without much worry;

Anyway – I would say 3 days in I’m amped up and ramped up…ready for the long haul. I miss facebook…but it’s emblematic of loving the things of this world TOO MUCH. Which sadly, as I read our Bible reading the other night…the admonition not to love our children or spouses or parents more than we love God…and I struggle with that one. I can express astonishing love to my kids. I express love to my mom. I just don’t know how to get completely ridiculous expressing my love to God – aside from getting on my knees and telling Him…but that seems weak.

So anyway…so far, so great.